The Christian Paradox

In the past couple of months, I’ve been busy with a lot of things. My small family grew (my wife had a baby!), getting a lot more to do in work, and all at the same time juggling with all of these responsibilities as a father, a husband, an employee, a student, a youth minister, and a servant in church. It’s easy to being swayed and swept away in all of these busyness, and forgetting God.

And yet, despite my initial post earlier this year, I am continually struggling to subdue my own selfish desires and ego, and submit to the Lord Himself. At times I felt like I’ve failed, and there are times where I think I might just lose it altogether.

But God reminded me. Despite of me being pulled away from Him farther each day, out of His bottomless infinite love, He reminded me of what’s truly important through something that will speak to me directly: worship.

My heart beating, my soul breathing
I found my life when I laid it down

Upward falling, spirit soaring
I touch the sky when my knees hit the ground

Through those words, God reminded me that it is through my weakness, God’s strength is made perfect in me.

Through those words, God reminded me that it is through me dying my life, God’s plan and purpose are made whole in me.

Through those words, God reminded me that, it is through my surrendering, God’s control over all things in my life is made known.

So help me God, to stay at Your feet, surrendering everything that I am.

Stay blessed.

Touch the Sky – Hillsong UNITED